As I travel through college, I've experienced so many new things. Some wonderful, some that have taught me a lesson.
In these quick paced 3 months I've lived in Arizona, I can tell I've grown substantially.
I have decided I am tired of looking at a girl on Instagram and wishing I was just a bit more like her.
I have decided I am tired of looking for other ways to make myself happy.
I have decided I want to be the thing that makes me the most happy. If my parents put all of their happiness and faith into me, then by god I should be doing the same.
In these quick paced 3 months I've lived in Arizona, I can tell I've grown substantially.
I have decided I am tired of looking at a girl on Instagram and wishing I was just a bit more like her.
I have decided I am tired of looking for other ways to make myself happy.
I have decided I want to be the thing that makes me the most happy. If my parents put all of their happiness and faith into me, then by god I should be doing the same.
I feel that all our lives we are waiting to please someone else. Some one else who only is giving less than half interest into who we are. They aren't looking to grow with us. They aren't looking for our best interests. They are only seeking what is good enough for them because they too are struggling with themselves.
As a society, our lives revolve around a quick maneuver to gain what we want, however what we want isn't substantial to what we need. We focus on things to make us appear to be happy when we really aren't.
When I tell people I find it hard to believe that someone can truly be happy, they look down on me. I don't feel that they quite understand what I mean. The reason why I believe people aren't truly happy is because it always appears that deep down inside they are still struggling with inner demons. Maybe that's just a pessimistic way of looking at people, I'm not too sure, but I know that for the rest of my time this semester, I'm going to delve into how I can truly be happy.
I already know how I will do it. I will start by truly loving and accepting my heritage, which is slowly, but surely happening as I write this. I plan to visit Nigeria in the near future and grow in love with it. It has been something I have been trying to conceal for a majority of my life.
My life, my happiness, my goals have nothing to do with anyone else. In that respect I choose to be selfish and give it my all. I refuse to continue to live with self doubt and hate. You cannot continue to carry on like that!
Thank you to FroGirlGinny for her beautiful message on her newest blog post. I woke up this morning inspired and was even more inspired after reading her post. It inspired me to write my own.
Here's the song I was listening to as I wrote this. I encourage you to listen to it!
As a society, our lives revolve around a quick maneuver to gain what we want, however what we want isn't substantial to what we need. We focus on things to make us appear to be happy when we really aren't.
When I tell people I find it hard to believe that someone can truly be happy, they look down on me. I don't feel that they quite understand what I mean. The reason why I believe people aren't truly happy is because it always appears that deep down inside they are still struggling with inner demons. Maybe that's just a pessimistic way of looking at people, I'm not too sure, but I know that for the rest of my time this semester, I'm going to delve into how I can truly be happy.
I already know how I will do it. I will start by truly loving and accepting my heritage, which is slowly, but surely happening as I write this. I plan to visit Nigeria in the near future and grow in love with it. It has been something I have been trying to conceal for a majority of my life.
My life, my happiness, my goals have nothing to do with anyone else. In that respect I choose to be selfish and give it my all. I refuse to continue to live with self doubt and hate. You cannot continue to carry on like that!
Thank you to FroGirlGinny for her beautiful message on her newest blog post. I woke up this morning inspired and was even more inspired after reading her post. It inspired me to write my own.
Here's the song I was listening to as I wrote this. I encourage you to listen to it!