"everything will eventually fall into place to the point where your life will feel balanced."
I came across this amazingly beautiful girl on my Instagram. First, I can say I was super jealous because she was modeling for brands I've always dreamed of, however after I read her story (see below), I felt like I become so much closer to her even though I hadn't spoken to her yet. Even after reaching out to her about this little interview, I became more aware of how genuine she was. Isabella has a beautiful face, as well as personality. She and I both hope this interview will inspire someone out there. What would you tell your younger self? "Be you. Don't let a man, or a female define you. You are going to start out with a huge circle of friends, but only graduate from high school with a few. Stay away from anything/anyone who gives you bad vibes. Trust your instincts and respect your parents. Your mom/dad may just end up as your best friend." How can someone who is suffering from inner demons break past them? "You have to accept the fact that you cannot run away from your problems, but what you can do, is grow out of them. You have to let time do it's thing... I always went by the quote "time heals everything" because it honestly does. As time passes, things will get better. You have to remember that if you think negatively; your life will be negative, but if you think with positivity; good things will start happening." What is one way you can relax and bring yourself back to center? "Practice deep breathing techniques, think about something positive in your life. Whether it's a pet, or your favorite bad/musical artist." | What is one thing you have learned over the years? "I've learned that loving yourself & knowing who you are, and being comfortable with that person you are, is probably one of the most important things. Everything will eventually fall into place to the point where your life will feel balanced. " How have you changed your outlook on life? "I became very certain about what i liked in a guy, I watch every little move. and i set boundaries. If you can't respect my boundaries and the way I feel about things, it's simple, don't be with me. Ur loss." How has your story affected you back then? "I slipped into a depression, I felt very lost. Very alone. I never self harmed, but on the inside I was hurt, and mentally I was broken. " Any other piece of advice you'd like to mention? "I published my story on tumblr, not for the attention, but for anyone that could relate in any way. I needed a slightly older female role model when going thru the things I was going thru. If I could be that person for someone, it would truly be amazing. Life is amazing, and it just gets better and better. You just have to believe in yourself, work hard, stay confident, know your worth, and embrace your inner greatness. It may seem hard to do now, but i promise as long as u stay positive, great things start happening." |
hank you, love for opening up to the public. i hope you realize how influential you are today.
you've even opened up my world and i appreciate that.
"If you're looking for a sign to not self harm or kill yourself, this is it. I want you to be alive."
Here's her story. I suggest you read it.
"when you’re young you dont see things the same way as you may when your mind fully matures.
when i was fifteen i dated an older boy, he was eighteen years old & asked me to date him after the first day of meeting each other. i always wanted a relationship & never had one before, so i said yes. at first he texted me from the morning to the time i went to bed, i was so happy to have someone who had interest in me. i was in 9th grade at the time & didn’t get along with my parents. my dad and I constantly were fighting, so i relied on my boyfriend for the attention i lacked from my dad. all I wanted to do was impress my bf. we finally hungout again, i was so excited. while we were hanging out he asked me to give him head, i had never thought he would ask me so soon.. i said no at first but he kept pressuring me, i said okay because he threatened to get it from another girl if i didnt. every time after that, that’s all that would happen. i remember he had slapped me across the face before, for no reason at all. i didn’t think there was anything wrong with how he acted towards me. after the first couple of weeks he started telling me i was too skinny, and that i needed to become thicker. i remember searching “ways to get thicker” on youtube & trying to figure out every method there was. i began drinking ‘whole milk’, i would drink it until i threw up because my stomach couldn’t handle how much i was drinking. i started drinking all different types of protein supplements. it still was not working and my bf would constantly remind me to just keep doing it. it started making me sick because of everything i was drinking to try to become “thicker” just to please him. after two months i broke it off with him, after finding out he had sexual relations with a girl i called my bestfriend at the time. but still didn’t realize that everything he had done was not wrong. he blamed me for the break up. i remember looking at myself in the mirror, thinking, why can’t i be this, why can’t i be that. i felt disgustingly skinny. and that i wouldn’t be enough for anyone.
i slipped into a depression, i never left my house, & i switched schools.
i began watching Cassie Ventura on YouTube, she was beautiful. and we had the exact same body. I used to watch the “Me & U” & “Long Way 2 Go” video constantly. it made me feel good about myself. I made a Twitter account & spent all summer on it.
once I started my 10th grade year at my new school, my mom & I started becoming really close. I consider her my best friend. i can’t stress how important it is to have a close relationship w/ your mom or dad.
Im seventeen now, my grades improved greatly & im now a straight ” A”student. I make money from promoting clothing lines on Twitter & I work at a dentist office, currently working towards getting my dental assistant certification. Both my parents are very supportive of me & i have a great circle of friends. I also model. I look in the mirror & i know i am beautiful, i have my flaws but i have accepted them. i know right from wrong when it comes to dating, and im extremely picky when it comes to relationships lol. i still have problems w/ getting intimate because of the abuse i went through at a young age, but i am working on it. I express myself thru my fashion. I want to influence young teens to stay strong & positive, as ppl like Cassie Ventura had done for me. I can honestly say, I am beautiful."
when i was fifteen i dated an older boy, he was eighteen years old & asked me to date him after the first day of meeting each other. i always wanted a relationship & never had one before, so i said yes. at first he texted me from the morning to the time i went to bed, i was so happy to have someone who had interest in me. i was in 9th grade at the time & didn’t get along with my parents. my dad and I constantly were fighting, so i relied on my boyfriend for the attention i lacked from my dad. all I wanted to do was impress my bf. we finally hungout again, i was so excited. while we were hanging out he asked me to give him head, i had never thought he would ask me so soon.. i said no at first but he kept pressuring me, i said okay because he threatened to get it from another girl if i didnt. every time after that, that’s all that would happen. i remember he had slapped me across the face before, for no reason at all. i didn’t think there was anything wrong with how he acted towards me. after the first couple of weeks he started telling me i was too skinny, and that i needed to become thicker. i remember searching “ways to get thicker” on youtube & trying to figure out every method there was. i began drinking ‘whole milk’, i would drink it until i threw up because my stomach couldn’t handle how much i was drinking. i started drinking all different types of protein supplements. it still was not working and my bf would constantly remind me to just keep doing it. it started making me sick because of everything i was drinking to try to become “thicker” just to please him. after two months i broke it off with him, after finding out he had sexual relations with a girl i called my bestfriend at the time. but still didn’t realize that everything he had done was not wrong. he blamed me for the break up. i remember looking at myself in the mirror, thinking, why can’t i be this, why can’t i be that. i felt disgustingly skinny. and that i wouldn’t be enough for anyone.
i slipped into a depression, i never left my house, & i switched schools.
i began watching Cassie Ventura on YouTube, she was beautiful. and we had the exact same body. I used to watch the “Me & U” & “Long Way 2 Go” video constantly. it made me feel good about myself. I made a Twitter account & spent all summer on it.
once I started my 10th grade year at my new school, my mom & I started becoming really close. I consider her my best friend. i can’t stress how important it is to have a close relationship w/ your mom or dad.
Im seventeen now, my grades improved greatly & im now a straight ” A”student. I make money from promoting clothing lines on Twitter & I work at a dentist office, currently working towards getting my dental assistant certification. Both my parents are very supportive of me & i have a great circle of friends. I also model. I look in the mirror & i know i am beautiful, i have my flaws but i have accepted them. i know right from wrong when it comes to dating, and im extremely picky when it comes to relationships lol. i still have problems w/ getting intimate because of the abuse i went through at a young age, but i am working on it. I express myself thru my fashion. I want to influence young teens to stay strong & positive, as ppl like Cassie Ventura had done for me. I can honestly say, I am beautiful."